Holiday Season 2009

Tomorrow is thanksgiving. Again. Years seem to pass even faster than before, and I used to think they were going fast. I suppose I should only expect it to get faster. This is the first time in a long time that I am more or less content with my life upon reflecting back on it.

I am working on this essay for Old English. It is supposed to be about the theme of exile in the poetry. I have the hardest times lately writing academically. I wonder if that means that I am approaching a writer's block. I try to keep pushing through, but everything feels the same--as though I've said it all before. I feel like I am simply repeating myself ad infinitum. I don't know if this means I need to read more, or if I simply need to spend more time practicing my writing. Either way, I know that I need to focus on my craft of writing before I enter into the PhD level.

This is the season in which I do the majority of my writing. I will probably write more than a hundred pages over the next three weeks. That is enough to publish a small collection of works. I keep thinking about getting my essays bound into one collection, and do this from now on. Each semester I will make a collection of all my works, so that I can throw away everything else, and I know exactly which pieces will be worth saving. There is so much paper at the end of each semester in both notes and drafts that I end up just throwing it all in a box for it to pile up. I have boxes upon boxes stored up in my closet.

How is it that I can just dump my thoughts, and I'm always thinking about something, yet when I try to write an academic essay lately it has been rough writing. I think that if I start blogging daily then I will exercise my writing "muscle" and will be able to write as freely when it comes to writing for school, but I don't know how well this will work out.